bear with me

yea i was sharing in cell group today that this week was probably an emo week for me. like one of those weeks that turned out sour and picky. there certainly are things to thank God for but i don't know why I'm focusing so much on complaining these days and getting myself upset for no rhyme or reason.

thank you shifu for being there. I'm glad i could be truthful with you about things. and you're the "guo lai ren" so it mattered that you understood. and to the ppl who listened to my crap, basically just 2 of you.. thank yOu.

i still can't believe that i' cried over such a small matter.
its been long since i cried like really hard. too much that it was so difficult to stop. okay maybe then it wasn't a small matter. it meant a darn lot to me. but again- there's no reason to cry because i haven't got any claim. i wasn't in any position to decide.
how cruel life makes out to be. so mad that sometimes it makes you feel like giving up.

not sure why but things are getting tiring.
the fire seems to be distinguishing.
the path seems lonely.
the love's been stolen.
i can almost say 'its the END!'

aa- dear one, please don't go away.
Lord, send your sparks again.

please. with all my sincerity.

{ 11:18 pm }