bear with me

Looie.. i reallie miss you.. noe wad.. i kindof hate polylife.. i don't noe why.. here typing u this entry cos i seldom see you.. i'm using up this box of kleenex.. u shld noe what's happening.. Looie.. i jus feel angry wif myself u noe.. jus reallie really Angry.. i scolded myself.. but it was of no use.. : (
today i had to go back to sch.. becos of guitar.. and and.. and.. things jus sux.. 1stly.. i can't play.. and todAY I rushed down to sch like mad.. all the way from my shifu's hse at serangoon.. hai.. then i played the guitar i.. then we ended off at 6 plus 7.. the whole time at guitar.. my mother and marg jus kept calling and fan' - ing me.. ask me to do wad u noe.. BUY corn Flour... wah piang..
ya.. so my mother expected me to buy corn flour back and she's gonna cook dinner.. so i had to go back.. mean while.. my guitar friends.. one grp of them wanted to go out.. and they asked me and lihui to go. i then decided to be guai and go home for dinner.. ya.. reallie.. and lihui also said tt she was going back and not out wif them..
ya.. so i left and went home to be tt goody kid who listens to mama..
ya la.. and then.. THEY ALL went for dinner.. and the worst thing was they took foto with jj.. haiii... jj lei.. they met him..
and i don't noe why i jus felt reallie reallie angry.. was upset and jus furious wif myself.. i could have been there to see him and all.. haii.. i noe tt it's wrong to be so worldly and stuff.. but i couldn't control myself.i played jj's cd.. and yan lei jus kept coming.. they were angry tears

but now coming to think of it i feel so Stupid.. so so mad..
don't realliie noe why i felt like tt and why it happened.. arrgh.. i'm confused..
i'm dying

{ 11:37 pm }