bear with me

haiX.. tot tt i've kindof grown up.. at least a little.. but i think i still haven't. i don't noe : ( .. today's sunday.. and it's birthdayParty time for jowyne again.. hm.. well she's my church's mei nu.. ya.. someone whose ren qi is very very good.. she treated my church friends and her own friends to TCC.. a total of 30 odd ppl came.. could u imagine how much 'face' everyone gave her?? ... well.. she recieved lots and lots of presents.. 'duo dao shu bu qing'.. she got so many things.. flowers.. bags.. clothes.. cards.. hugs.. and most importantly.. a Swavoski Crystal pendant.. Crystal one lei.. those shining shining ones that cost a bomb.. yar.. and it was from .. shifu.. hm.. bearbear so xian mu her.. her boyfriend also came.. well, this is the 2nd yr that she held a birthday drink treat.. haiX.. jus wish that she's happie..

i wonder.. if i were to hold something like tt.. would ppl come?.. i think not.. no one would bother.. ahz.. k .. i noe those reading might sae tt i think too much.. but reallie.. this is how i feel.. i'm sure no one would think so much as i do.. : (
david told me today that.. ppl like jowyne and my shifu.. and many more are those who always receive uncountable presents.. and so.. they might jus take ur present for granted.. he said.. 'yup.. these are the things your shifu can't teach u..' and i truly agree with that.. i rem when i went to shifu's hse.. last last sat.. i didn't see the present that i gave him displayed out anywhere in his room.. was upset of cos.. hm.. maybe this tudi of his isn't that impt after all.. hm.. yar.. again u might sae i think too much.. but.. haiX.. wadever.. well, i think he might never ever get to see this blog.. that's why i dare to sae so much about this here..

i noe i shouldn't sae so much abt these things.. k i'm jus going to shut up.. actuallie this situation is rather normal.. cos ard me are always so many of joWynes' in church.. school.. if u noe wad i'm talking about.. u should understand..ya.. anyways.. that's all..

despite all this.. i wanna thank god.. tt he's there when i needed him..

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